Sunday, December 9, 2007
the good book
it's only been recently that i have discovered how much i love to learn. i always knew that i liked "knowing" things, but i never really loved learning. knowing doesn't involve a dependence on others, learning does. knowing says that i have it all together, learning says i need more. knowing is great for spouting off knowledge or winning at jeopardy, learning is great for actually connecting with people. it's only been recently that i've learned to love learning. so many giants have gone before us. there is so much more to everything than we think.
i have always (usually) only studied things that i already sort of knew about or believed. i am now in a place where i desire (as scary as that is) to be challenged a bit. i was raised catholic and eventually left the church (in my heart, around 16. in practice at 19) to begin attending a protestant church. the latter seemed so much more alive. the people more friendly. the message more relevant. i have, though, come to see the depth of the catholic and orthodox churches. do they have their issues... you bet. but so does every group of people that classifies themselves as a "Christian church". the thing i've discovered i miss within protestantism is the meditative, the mysticism, the reverence. not that these are totally absent within protestatism (just as the more historical churches have aspects of alive congregations and relevant messages), but they are not pushed at all. if you want to experience any of this, you have to go to sources outside your circle. maybe that's a good thing.
i have been learning about the prayerful reading of the Bible, also known as Lectio Divina. slowly reading and drinking in the text. truly meditating on the words and the meaning behind them. prayerfully seeking God to speak through the books He inspired. i have always thought i tried this, but i realize now i haven't. this is new and challenging to me.