Sunday, December 9, 2007

the good book



it's only been recently that i have discovered how much i love to learn. i always knew that i liked "knowing" things, but i never really loved learning. knowing doesn't involve a dependence on others, learning does. knowing says that i have it all together, learning says i need more. knowing is great for spouting off knowledge or winning at jeopardy, learning is great for actually connecting with people. it's only been recently that i've learned to love learning. so many giants have gone before us. there is so much more to everything than we think.

i have always (usually) only studied things that i already sort of knew about or believed. i am now in a place where i desire (as scary as that is) to be challenged a bit. i was raised catholic and eventually left the church (in my heart, around 16. in practice at 19) to begin attending a protestant church. the latter seemed so much more alive. the people more friendly. the message more relevant. i have, though, come to see the depth of the catholic and orthodox churches. do they have their issues... you bet. but so does every group of people that classifies themselves as a "Christian church". the thing i've discovered i miss within protestantism is the meditative, the mysticism, the reverence. not that these are totally absent within protestatism (just as the more historical churches have aspects of alive congregations and relevant messages), but they are not pushed at all. if you want to experience any of this, you have to go to sources outside your circle. maybe that's a good thing.

i have been learning about the prayerful reading of the Bible, also known as Lectio Divina. slowly reading and drinking in the text. truly meditating on the words and the meaning behind them. prayerfully seeking God to speak through the books He inspired. i have always thought i tried this, but i realize now i haven't. this is new and challenging to me.

1 comment:

Ashley Weis said...

I know what you mean. I love challenge, and to be challenged. I love learning about cultures, people, and religion. But in our search for truth we can sometimes forget the simplicity of it.

Religion is so different from truth, and being a Christian. There is no right religion. But there is a right God. One God.

Even Protestant churches have too many differences to name. Politics have seriously damaged "faith."

Whenever I research religion I'm brought to this one point. Behind the charismatic alive protestants, and behind the reverent mystic catholics, there is a china man worshipping in a place where he could be killed for it, with no music, no insence, no bread and wine or grape juice, no religion, no sermon; he has Christ, and that's all he needs to worship. His bible and His Lord.

This post struck a chord with me. Something I'm passionate about I guess.